What is that? .. I dont know.. You should sit in it... Okay

8 9 10

I feel... like a beachball...
YOU figure it out.

It kills me

Two weeks ago i could have sworn no one would care if i left. I dont have really strong relationships with... anyone really... except Sydney.
Maybe if I leave they'll realize what they're missing...?
Maybe that was rude of me to say, but i dont care.
I didnt get what I was looking for...
I'm jumbled. really. jumbled.

Legacy , guilt trips and girls camp

I'm listing right now. enjoy
1.I'm going to do the pro's and cons of going to shadow vs. going to legacy...
2.i'm scared of the outcome because i already know where i'm going next year...
3. Spencer McKee's going to guilt trip me for forever apparantly...
PROS ( of legacy)
-ASL classes...
-I'd possibly get to do StuCo
-I was told to
-I know a few people there...
-its an indoor school
-Volleyball....
-other sports too
- Theater
-New people,
-new experiences
-maybe i'd get asked on dates...
-it would be easy to get to work.

CONS(of legacy)
-I'd have to leave all my great friends at shadow
-I'd get guilt tripped by spencer
-Mr. Barnson.
-outside my comfort zone.
-i dont know if i'd be on Yearbook...

PROS ( of shadow)
-good friends
-already in social groups.
-inside comfort zone
-I know the layout of the school
-I wouldnt get guilt tripped
-dont have to re-register
-I can do Yearbook, easy

CONS (of shadow)
- I cant do sports
-I dont get asked on dates...
- Its an outside school
- I cant take sign language
- I hate the theater teacher
- I know its not where i'm SUPPOSED to be
-I cant shake the above feeling

I'm still all jumbled up inside. I'll miss Shadow... but I'm excited for the unknown.

I love falling :)

I'm scared because i know this will never work
its so cliche
but it feels like it should be different...
its not.
its wonderful and perfect and exciting and
NERVE WRACKING!!!
I dont know why I have to find the right guy here...
i mean i dont even know if he IS the right guy
but i feel like i've known him forever and its been less then a week since i met him... Yesterday was our first date but it feels like an eternity.
I'm keeping it level headed, I promise. I'm allowing myself to be set up to get hurt, i realize this. I'm not in a movie, this is real life , and its real hard.But i think i deserve to be liked, you know? I deserve to have someone to care... but I dont understand why it has to happen here and i realize i dont know him... he could be lying about everything! But he seems so genuine, and he's so sweet, and perfect for me! i'm not going to lie, I dont get it.
I'm so confused because this is exactly what i wanted, and now that i have it, I'm absolutely terrified that the consequential heartbreak will break me even farther. I know its going to happen. I'm not stupid, and niether is he. We wont ever see eachother. This cant work. No matter how much i want it to, or he wants it too, its just a summer fling, and i cant let myself forget it:/
Falling for a boy who has every intention of catching me, but cant hold on...

I didnt want to be 16

and i had good reasoning! I didnt want to be the girl that never dated anyone.. and its not because i'm not ready, because TRUST ME. I AM. Its that no one likes me like that. I'm " one of the guys" i'm fun, i'm pretty, im nice.. what more do you want. O wait . You want a slut.... well grow freaking up and someone just take me on one date! I dont need a relationship. i want a. Date.:)

NEVER WANT TO NEVER REMEMBER.

tonight . was. amazing. LAST NIGHT. WAS. AMAZING. I want life to be as amazing as this weekend every. single . day.:)

Surviving

It wasnt the end.. it was the beginning. and i wish it was in a literal sense the "start of something new" but .. i dont know.. Im still surviving. and thats all i really need i guess.

I'm done

I'm done with friends who just dont care
and ESPECIALLY ones who PRETEND to.
I'm done with people who think that i'm ugly
I'm done with people who judge me before they know me
I HATE how people treat me like i'm a welcome mat and step all over me
I"M DONE doing crap for people who wont return a freaking favor!
I'm done telling people happy birthday.
I'm done with SRHS theater
I'm done with people who treat me like crap
I'm done with everyone
I'm done with school
I'm done with 2010
I'm SO done with sophmore year
I'm done
i'm done
imdone
please help me start over
please care
someone.
care.
about.
me.
stop pretending for the image.
Youre NOT fooling anyone.

I QUIT.

I seriously dont know where to begin. YESTERDAY, my actual birthday was fine! I didnt mind it at all... It was today. Today when I realized that half of my "friends" dont really care. SAMANTHA GUTIERREZ is the ONE PERSON who actually did what they said they would do. The rest of you SUCK. Over the past year I have done all i can to make everyones birthday as great as possible, and I did it for YOU because i wanted to make your day great! And now its my turn. I need something besides a " happy birthday" on facebook because i dont CARE about facebook. Facebook just means you were too lazy to actually do something. I need a friend who wants me to feel special for once. I just want someone to care. someone to remember. I honestly can say that this was the hardest day of the year to go through... and i'm not complaining about the facebook happy birthdays... but when it gets to the point where homework is more important, or even just being lazy is more important than helping a friend have a good day... its gone too far guys. I'm not going to do anymore . I CANT do anymore . I'm worn out, and I need someone to take care of ME.

Daisy.

How is it that one of my favorite songs now makes me want to cry?

"Love is like paint it makes everything beautiful."

Friday, April 16, 2010
RANDOM QUESTION BLOCK


can i tell you something?
Honey, I'm all ears
i mean really tell you something?
SPill your soul:)
my thoughts,dreams,and my ideas?
I'll listen to every single one
would you listen to them..
Of COURSE I WOULD LISTEN!
when you listen to them would you really care?
I promise to.
how many people really care?
As many as you tell I'm sure.
how do you know you really care?
Because I care about you ( as my "wife" ) and if something is bugging you it bugs me too
can you feel it?
I can never feel exactly what you're feeling, but i'll feel pain if you are.
is it menatl or physical when you feel it?
Its everything. its nothing. its feeling.
is everything linked together?
EVERY SINGLE THING.
do you need religion... and what is it?
yeah , but it seems i need it more sometimes, and less at others... Religeon is believing in what you cant see.
did someone just make it up one day?
how do you find truth?
nope. Its real, and its there.
why dont i watch more of the history or discovry channel?
because you think to your self" hrmmmm welll glee looks REALLY interesting today..."
why does the news depress me?
Because they only report depressing things.
can i be depressed?
You have the right to your own emotions. dont let anyone tell you otherwise.
can i act?
Be real
can i start over completly new?
There wil always be some things you cant get away from, pre-set notions, everything... There is really , no such thing as "new"
can i be anything i want to be?
If you work at it... its a possibility. There are more failure stories than success stories.
can a song really make you move?
Literally? no. but in all honesty i swear its engrained in our heads or something.
can time really go slower?
only if you dont want it to.
can i control it?
No, sadly, time isnt ours to control
MAY I PLEASE GET AN ANSWER?
Here they are
hello?
Hi:)

YOUR ANSWERS PLAIN AND SIMPLE MY DEAR:)(someone is always listening to you call for help.)

Sixteen.

I dont know what to do for my birthday!!! PEOPLE! HELP ME OUT HERE! I cant throw a party, cause I reaaalllly REALLLLLLLLLLYYYY dont have enough room.. or enough time to plan... or ANYTHING really... sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo help me out. I'm thinking about doing a project for all my friends... haha the 20bajillion of you out there... lol

Bribed.

How sad is it that I have to bribe MYSELF into doing my own Math homework!!! :P psh. stupid subject. I'm never going to need this.

Today yesterday and tomorrow.

I will treasure you for all of the todays
I will remember loving you yesterday
and I will always save plenty of love for our infinite tomorrows
I will love you every yesterday today and tomorrow
'till the end of time

Who is this about? Dont ask me. I dont even know yet... I'll find him. SO basically to get you filled in.... the past ... i dont even know... MONTH has been insane... I've had one of the worst days ever to having a really awesome day:) I'll start by telling you about my worst day... then I'll tell you about everything else.. if this goes off into a random rant, dont blame me:):):)
Friday the 9th of April. SO.I woke up late, and got absolutely no sleep because i was working on the homework for Mr.Matties class, i rushed to get ready in five or so minutes, and got out the door ready for a great day. psh. ANYWAYS. I got into seminary and basically slept through it... dont remember what happened but I remember someone saying something that kinda hurt... idk. anyways, start out by going to physics and we go into the computer labs.. we're supposed to be working on this thing ... but idk what we're doing sooo i have no idea. I typed like half a page on FLUID FLOW (wtf?!?) and then all of a sudden the computer shut off... I thought, Okay weelllll whatev no big, I copied pasted most of it anyways.We leave...I got to grimes and get bombarded with questions from The people in my group like are you finished? is it funny? i dont want it to look bad rylea! ( maybe you guys could have done it....) I had been working on this project for miss grimes class for FOREVER right? and in yearbook I go into Nelsons room to work on it some more... but there was a sub... she said it was okay, so I go on the computer and... Its gone. There is NO memory of the video AT ALL! so we log out to try and check another screen and WHAM no one knows the password. we go through EVERY SINGLE FREAKING OFFICE CHARACTER. every.single.one. and everything else too. his sons name, mustang, srhs, etc. i go into grady's and freak out a little... well alot... and kyle said there is nothing we can do about it anyways... so he edits his other video instead.. thanks. ( sarcasm is a beautiful thing.) I text people trying to find out what's going on with nelson, but he's in surgery and we cant reach him... the yearbook girls demand me to play apples to apples, which i didnt mind.. because it got my mind off of it, but I always feel like an outcast around them, so it didnt help the dark cloud above my head any... I decided to go to grimes and tell her that it was gone.. her response ---" oh well" I swear. i was about to just die. I go back into nelsons room and THEY FOUND THE PASSWORD! YES!!! .... my project wasnt there... the footage was on a tape that someone had borrowed from nelson, so we couldnt recapture it... I was STRESSED. OUT. I didnt know how i could ever do this whole project in one day ... BASICALLY the rest of the day went like this: was supposed to get my braces off. didnt. Couldnt find mr.matties homework. Dad said i was grounded because i didnt do my dishes that i didnt know about. Snuck to go to annmaries party, and had fun.. except for the dirty stares of a few people... basically everything that could have gone wrong aside from the above. did. I havent REALLY cried since the 7th grade, and if you know my situation at home that is quite a feat... so when i tell you that i cried, its a big deal...
ANYWHO that was only part of my story but i need to go to bed! ITS 11:30 !!! night:)

So..um...ya.

REALLY GREAT SONG LYRICS PART 1.
1. He's got looks that books take pages to tell
2. Without you there's no reason for my story, and when I'm with you I can always act the same
3.Last night these two bouncers... and one of 'em's all right, the other one's a scary one and his way or no way totalitarian.
4.Why dont we run away? we can leave our problems at the door.
5. If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
6. Cause when her heart breaks it dont break even
7. If this is what you want just let me know... but if this is love tell me so
8.our concentration, it contains a deadly flaw, our conversations change from words to blah blah blah.
9 And I'm waiting for you to be the one I'm waiting for.
10.Let that Igloo cooler mark your piece of paradise

Now find the artists... GO! haha
JK.

SO... my spring break was a FLOP! I DID do... about two things on my list from the last few posts... ummm I painted my bathroom, and the den... and cleaned. and shopped ... and WISHED that SOMEONE would do something TOTALLY CRAZY AND INTERESTING and invite me:) I'm drowning in Homework, and wasting time on the computer.
Math.
sucks.
PERIOD.
Physics.
is.
retarded.
PERIOD.
YUP I"M THIS BORED!!!!!! sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo someone shake it up please, because I've done all I can to.. and it hasnt worked. SHake n' bake.

Blame it on the girls

He's got looks that books take pages to tell....
Mika is addicting friends ... look it up.
Hoookkayy.

YOU CANNOT BE SEXY ON CRUTCHES.

unless you pole dance on them.
Period.
hahahahahahhahahaahaha not that I was trying or anything. I couldnt be sexy if it killed me. I want to try one day... to be sexy I mean. I dont know, it just seems fun to be flirty... hahahahahahaha imagine it. wow. I think I'd die laughing. Or everyone else would think it was pathetic. I dont know how they do it. I mean I have an attitude and all, but I only use it in times of need. I can flirt, but its a petty, cute thing, with lots of laughing. or giggling... or whatever. SO one day over spring break I'm going to try it... like an experiment.. or acting.. or something haha and I'll document My events.. so far my spring Break has a few things I need to do
1. Be sexy for a day ( find people to teach me.. Wife, you up for it?;))
2. Go get dairy queen with Bryce jaggers
3. Go to salt lake
4. Have a trip to the mall
5. Have a day with Brooklyn!
... the end:) ADD TO MY LIST PEOPLE TELL YOUR FRIENDS!!! I'M GOING TO MAKE THIS THE BEST SPRING BREAK EVER!!! :)watch me.

WOAH. this blog makes me look like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster...

Nope I'm not bipolar... I only really write on my blog when I need to say stuff, and thats either on A.) a good day or B.) a bad day. On Eh days which are basically fillers for the rest of the week, nothing of purpose happens, so I dont have topics to write about.. except impersonal ones, and I would love to write about those if I wouldnt sound random and crazy :) SO If you have topics you would like me to write about, GO FOR IT!! Comment as many topics ( random or not) you would like me to write about and guess what... I WILL! haha unless they are super personal and I wouldnt tell anyone... putting stuff like that on the internet= no bueno. lol Oh and also, POLL IN SIDEBAR! ==----------> thataway. seeya!

WHOEVER VOTED YELLOW: you are super awesome:)

Oh wait! That was me... hahahahaha jkjk. I invented super awesome anyways... ANYWHICh I'm actually kinda in need of a movie or something ... so if anyone loves me, and wants to come with me to a la movies or rent one for me or something.. that would be FANTASTIC. The reasoning for the movie, is I normally go on walks after school, or jump on my trampoline, or swing on swings at the park, etc. Unfortunately i have a minor setback... and i'm kinda in the mood for a really good movie anyways. Help me get my mind off of all the crap, you know? OR if someone would like to do my homework, that would be fantastic... lol that was sarcasm! IF you have an interesting topic you'd want me to talk about, COMMENT AND TELL ME:) tell yo friends dude. If i get up to 15 followers, I'll tell a funny joke EVERY WEEK! thats right. you heard me. lol anyyywaayys thats all. Peace yo! <-------------sad attempt.. but whatever;)
(P.S You DIg the layout, yes??)

Ouch.

Everything hurts.
My fingers hurt, my arms hurt my shoulders hurt my chest hurts my legs hurt my stomach hurts my ankles hurt, my feet my toes hurt my back hurts my brain hurts, my heart hurts....
and yet I'm still kickin. Still pushing through. Pain meds do nothing, honestly. ESPECIALLY for things like a broken heart, and a wounded mind, but nothing for the body either.
I'm in PAINNN
but happy.
I'm crazy
I'm insane
I'm stupid
but I'm not giving up
I'm not letting it hide my true happiness
I'll just go sleep ... maybe if the pain doesnt keep me up It will go away with time.
I freakin just want to walk. MAN! COME ON!
anywho, my day was mostly just... gettin through. Nothing terrible happened, and aside from the pain it was actually pretty amazing:)
my name is Rylea , and THERES A POLL IN THE SIDEBAR SO DO IT SON!!!

Achilles of steel= QUINN SKOUSEN

Wowwwwww. SO my toe is broken. Sorry girls in Powderpuff, but I wont be able to play... next year we'll own, I promise.I'm REALLY bored. dude. like FOR SERIOUS. and I hate crutches... with a passion. and I'm in a little pain, but its not terrible since i took pills:) whoo prescriptions!! :)annnyyywhooo someone should bring me something random and awesome. tell your friends. I really need some love peeps. not gonna lie, i feel like crap. annnyywhho I'mma go wallow in self pity now. peace.

Hello 11:23, how is your day.

DARN IT !! Just realized I missed 11:11. Oh WELL:) so Jesse Bergner tried to ruin my day today.. but failed miserably! haha Ms.Grady is legit, so I just ran errands for her all day:) NO LIE!! Now I have the rest of the year to do well... just about nothing:) yesssssssssssssssssss... not really that much happiness, because I'mma be bored outta my rightful mind.. but I think I'm just going to Coops class to work on the study guides... blehh. ANYWHO. Today I went randomly to chili's with David Edwards. I needed that, he is such a nice guy:) i hope he doesnt move back to England. That would ruin my fun for half the time. especially there would be no fun until I got a car.... anyyywayyyss.. right now my hair is in a towel and if I dont go blow dry it it will look something like ...thatlady in the picture eewwwwwww hahahahaha that's me in twenty years. boys. jump on this train now:) lol jkjk ANYWAYYSSS I'mma go do that. PEACE!

Drifting, Dreaming, Dude. I'm happy and I dont care if this isnt alliterate:)

Life is AWESOME! You wanna know why?? I turned to the bad friends I had and said Hey you, walk the plank:) not literally, but I've decided that I'm going to cut ties with those who I dong feel good around:)I feel like there has been a weight lifted off my shoulders, and I'm back to being optimistic!! yay! whoa. there was pancake in my hair. sweet. NO i didnt eat it, you nasty! haha I'm seriously thinking about how beautiful today is, and how much fun it was, even though I had work. Hey, WHO CARES?! A little work is no big deal! dried pancake mix on my arm... Oh yeah, by the way, I made pancakes... I have a feeling that my random ability to make pancakes in various awesome shapes ( dinosaurs, butterflies, platapus) will be a rather effective bribing tool as a mother:):)
NEW TOPIC: My favorite cousin, and Aunt are in town for part of the week. This fact makes me smile from the inside out. Just so you know...like if you were wondering why my insides are looking all happy and all. haha
NEWER TOPIC: Jack Johnson is making me happy too. And pretty chill, so If you were to see me right now I'd probably be all smiley, but maybe a little more introverted than normal.
NEWEST TOPIC: I'm having a major problem deciding on who to vote for for VP:l Yama, Jessica McInnes, and Spencer Mckee are all running!!! OH NO!!! I love them all! dude, for real?! No seriously, this decision is going to probably be best won by the one who bribes me the best:) exciting! lol
NEWER THAN THE NEWEST TOPIC: I want to read a new book today. I need suggestions.. but no one ever reads my blog soooooooo I'm just probably going to end up re-reading something again :)
NUH-UH THAT IS NOT FAIR YOU CANT BE NEWER THAN NEWEST TOPIC: I have been on like a text-free thing. I havent texted really anyone in a while. Oh yeah, and I love love LOVE Elizabeth Hanson!!!! SHE IS SO LEGIT.
My name is Rylea, what's yours? :)

LETS GO SHADOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHADOW MENS VOLLEYBALL STOMPED!!! I'm proud of you guys!!!( this is for Barbie : LAsAgnA! :))hahahhaha coolest. Wife.EVER!! Baseball, you guys played hard, and It was LEGIT! I feel like I have school spirit running through my veins if you haven't noticed thus far... I was at the school for a total of 12 hours today... surprised I'm not sick of it? ME TOO.
Anywhooo, today Is a good day, There was a little bit where i was scared for my good mood, but its back now:)KELSEY HOWARD: I owe you major for your keeping me company today! you make me laugh so hard:) Anyways, I'm going to go do stuff now... NIGHT!

It hurts.

It hurts to know that he's happy... and that makes me feel selfish... but I honestly tried to force myself to believe that I was the best thing that ever happened to him, and that losing me was the worst... Gosh. I feel so stupid for missing him still. I feel stupid.. for knowing that I may not have been the best thing that happened to him, but HE was the best thing that happened to me....

My blog 101

So I have some REALLY cool stuff on this blogl, and in celebration of this ( my 101th post) i've decided to go back and give you links to the BEST POSTS! haha the good, the funny, the stupid ! READY?!?! LETS RIDE!!

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/02/oohhhh-myy-gooddneess.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2008/12/boys-make-life.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2008/12/tiredness.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/01/moon-bowl.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/07/lalalala-i-cant-hear-you-cause-this-is.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/07/wierd-dream.html

http://mynamehttp://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/08/622-am.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/08/new-random-post.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2009/10/im-in-writing-mood-bear-with-me.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/01/happy-new-years.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/01/what-helps.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/01/time-to-be-deep.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/01/i-dont-even-know.html

http://mynameisrylea.blogspot.com/2010/02/sock-monkey-soup-has-me-groggy-with.html

Those listed above are pretty good... go through and comment so i know what you guys wanna hear! MY RANDOM LISTS ARE AWESOME AND YOU KNOW IT!!! The person who comments on the most posts will get a Prize and I'm not even joking ( please read them, because if the comments are stupid they wont be considered comments... funny is always good friends! haha ) READY? SET? GO!

New CRAZY dream!!!

I was running from a murderer guy with Emily Bergo... it starts like this:
I run through the parking lot darting in and out of cars and I'm breathing real hard, and i keep looking behind me, and then I run inside and the place is like a hospital in an office thing, and I go up to the lady and ask her about something and she looks at me all funny.. but her words just dont make sense when she tries to explain, and I see some guy coming in the doors and i inconspicuosly ( hiding behind a pamphlet lol)dart out the side door and into this field next to a development and i see Emily.. and I tell her whats happening and she acts like we're playing marco polo.. the guy is in a white car ( ironic right?! and yet it didnt seem relevant) and going around a round a bout and she screams " MARCO" and he yells polo, then gets out of the car and starts chasing us, she's giggling, and I'm scared outta my mind... but then he stops and the dream rewinds, and i run into the roundabout before he comes and i put my hand over her mouth before she screams and i say " shhhhh this isnt a joke" and she starts asking me a bunch of questions ( we're hiding in pine trees) then i woke up lol rannnnddooommm!! the end

UNANSWERABLE QUESTIONS... answered.

Why is it considered necessary to nail down the lid of a coffin?~~
Because during the zombie apocolypse, we'll want it to be harder for them. duh.
** Why does the sun lighten our hair, but darken our skin?
because of the pigments reaction to it.. keep in mind that hair is dead cells.
** Why can't women put on mascara with their mouth closed?~~
We can.. we prefer not to.
** Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?~~
have you ever left a bottle of glue out in the sun?!
** Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?~~
No one would believe it!
** Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?~~
a sad sad mans attempt at pathetic humor
** Why is a boxing ring square?~~
box... square... helloooo?
** Why is it called lipstick if you can still move your lips?~~
Its a stick of stuff you put on your lips...
** Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?~~
because no one is perfect.
** Why is it that rain drops but snow falls?~~
drops sounds heavier than falls.
** Why is it that when you're driving and looking for an address, you turn down the volume on the radio?~~
You do that?!?!
** Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?~~
this is what they WANT you to think...
** Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?~~
sick sense of humor. and thats usually what happens anyway.
** Why is the third hand on the watch called second hand?~~
Who are you to say its not the second hand??!?
** Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?~~
because everyone is rushing to get home....
** Why is the word dictionary in the dictionary?~~
because there is SOMEONE out there who doesnt know what it is.. so someone hands them a big book of words and says " look it up, its in alphebetical order"
** Why isn't there a special name for the tops of your feet?~~
there is... the top of your foot:)
** Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?~~
who buys the cat food?
** Why can't they make the whole plane out of the same substance that little indestructible black box is?~~
because it would be too heavy to fly... duh.
** Can fat people go skinny-dipping?~~
if only they wouldnt...
** Why do you need a driver's license to buy liquor when you can't drink and drive
because they need to see how old you are.

GENIUS!! HAHA

WHOOOAAAA .

STUPID WHITE CAR!!! Tonight was actually the first night that I was freaked out on a run... a white car followed me in my loop around deer springs, and after I sprinted up the hill, I hid behind a pine tree until the car was out of sight. I kept seeing white cars the rest of the half mile home, and I swear ... stupid white car owners.. looking like your going to kidnap me or something. psh. I'm too much like lightning for you!!! :)

OOHHHH MYY GOODDNEESS!!!!!

HAHhHhHhHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAA!!! Most HILARIOUS dream EVER!!!IT started out with me just sitting around the house, bored out of my mind, and then I log onto Neopets on the computer because I am just , REALLY bored.and I play this game where I'm spinning a wheel in a mall somewhere trying to get the number 13, but I lost. These random guys commented on my game saying that it was the most hilarious game they'd ever seen, because now, i was actually IN the game. and I'm walking through the mall and I see reece witherspoon or someone like her, dressed up in a bunch of black, and I go Up to her and ask her if she needed help doing her nails, and she said she did, so she put her hands up, and they were SMALL, like baby sized hands, and me and my boyfriend ( who doesnt really exist, but he popped into there and started calling me his girlfriend) are painting his nails, and we look over and there's this GIANT green hill with yellow spots all over it, and brown needles and stuff. someone throws me this plant and I look at the yellow stuff and its that string you can get at walmart in balls. I say Hey honey, we can use this when we get married!! and then my mom's there and she's like... Rylea thats a great Idea, what are you doing?? and i tell her that I'm painting that girls nails and she just leaves. I finish and go over to the green hill where there are a bunch of stick people( some had mustaches and sombreros not going to lie) standing and they have a leader, this guy I know who i'm not going to mention the name of. Theyre ready to attack this group of people that look somewhat like a cartoon version of the avatars and apparantly I'm on their side with my "fiancee" I try to make a truce, but no one will hear it. After the war, ( which consisted of throwing random items like socks, and pie over the hill) I stood in the middle and told them they couldnt fight anymore and the guy i knew on the other side came up to me and said they agreed, and all the needles left the hill, and we went around and picked up the yellow string, there was also a bunch of french books, and tacos that we had to pick up... The guy tried to convince me that I shouldnt marry the guy , and then I get all confuzed because i'm getting married like tomorrow, the save the dates have already been sent out, but we dont have a place where we're going to have it... and he tells me he loves me and I say I feel the same... and then he runs down the hill and my fiancee comes over the hill, and says like " the war is lost then?" ( and he's changed into a stick person with a moustache) and then my dad wakes me up..... Funny thing??? I wanted to go back to sleep.... lol You should have been there... there was ALOT more detail.

Hello World.

Lately has been just plain insane. I've had so much stress, and I apologize for the constant ominous mood. But people really? Stop dropping bombs!!! I dont care what you think about me, so... Shut up:) You dont know the backround story, you wouldn't care if I told you, so till you know the facts, dont pass them on:) Today was one of the days where you just dont want to deal with people so you dont get out of bed. I read 350 pages of twilight (dont judge me, its pretty well written, I hate the hype, but I was in the mood for a sappy love story) and slept more than I have in weeks. I dont mind how slowly the time has passed, because everything has seemed so fast paced lately. I'm VERY glad One Acts are DONE and we pulled it off:)The Olympics are great btw, you should watch them. I'm not being abnormally quiet, so stop asking. Its only abnormal if your used to my constant prattling, which is only to make things less awkward. I'm just letting things happen. No i'm not a different person, even if everyone seems to think I am. I'm just assimilating. I still have the same thoughts, blah blah blah. Nothing interesting to put.. well plenty interesting things to put, but i'm not in the mood to type, so byee:):)

I dont want this.

I dont want any of this.
IF YOU DONT LIKE ME DONT PRETEND
all of my "friends" are posers
when will this torture end

I cant stand not knowing who
the real ones really are
I felt like I was doing fine
I was off by VERY far.

SHUTTUP. Unless you have NEVER said a bad word about me , you cant comment on this. Unles you've NEVER told one of my secrets. Unless you've never started a rumor. Unless you are the real friends I found out were imaginary.
Real friends . ha.
You were just
figments.
of my
imagination.
The world I was living in? It was an ignorant dream. I was lost in the world of Rylea, pretending that my only problems were those at home. And those of school work. And those of trying to be kind. and follow rules. All . Lies. I was delirious, thinking that Brittany Phelan, AJ, and Kyle were friends of mine.... but when I was gone, so went their tounges. Thanks. Thanks.

The world goes in circles. Life is the same, Where this day began , this day ended, and where tomorrow begins, it will also end.

Look. I DONT WANT YOU . I dont want "friends" anymore so just stay out of my life. Just be gone.

Sock Monkey soup has me groggy with life-lag

Here . Have a list of random stuff while my hair dries. 1.sock Monkey soup isn't real... and if it was i prolly wouldnt eat it.2. Yup. life lag... like jet-lag. but permanentish.3. Whoa baby, My life is crazy, music makes it (somewhat)better.4. Elephants in tutu's are pretty legit. just saying... I'd like to see a tutu that big...5. I went to the gym wednesday.. and it was ahhhmazing. I want to go back to the gym..6. So the boys that I was talking about in previous posts turned out to be.. well.. sorta using me. This weekend is valentines day and I dont want to spend it with them. 7. I did ALL MY MAKEUP WORK!!! whooo!!!8. I'm going through some stuff okay? just butt out guys, i'm still me.9. I want to do something of note this weekend. Like important.. you know?10. I came up with this great quote " If you want life to be easy , simply stop calling people sluts.. She doesnt want to be called anything behind her back, so she's playing hard to get. lol 11. MyLifeIsAverage.com. LIVE IT LOVE IT !!! haha 12. I want a boy who reads MLIA to marry me.13. I have work this morninggg and I'm exited. I feel like i havent seen Scotty in a while:) Workshop monday!!! WHOOT!!14. I need to just find a nice guy.15. Hello hello, what have we here?16. Dont ask me why I said that.... 17. VALENTINES DAY. the movie. YUP totallyi going to go see that. 18. Anyways I have to get ready for work, I'll finish this later!

Rebellious

Since I was a little girl
I have hated rules, and laws, and authority
If at all possible I bend them to my will
Gravity, however , doesn't participate in this little debate
It wins everytime
and down I come.. crashing into reality
I'm sorry.





I expected a fairytale.


My name is Rylea.
I'm being a total jerk lately.
I'm sorry, if I've hurt you.
I'm sorry.
I'm not sorry for being myself.


Thanks to the poster who told me to put back the last line. I say, you're the best :)

Hopeless.

I am now hopeless
I CANT DO THIS!
There's too much on my plate
It doesnt help that i've lost faith too
Introducing another task each day
If people would do their jobs on time maybe my job would be easier
BUT THEY DONT!
Stupid . STUPID people.
waiting till the last minute to assign tasks for me that are due fast
because THEY FORGOT
MY LIFE IS NOW FULL OF STUFF... that I'll never be able to complete.
Regionals are FRIDAY. I got my monologues and duets TODAY
I have a 3 page essay
an english essay
two tests in math
5 pages for physics
Pictures ALONE for sadies, because SOMEONE cant do their part and i cant seem to be bitchy enough to get her to understand that I CANT DO IT ALONE!
I dont know if i like this boy as much as i thought... and im pretty sure he doesnt like me
WHAT PART of I WONT BE OK FOR A FEW WEEKS DONT THEY UNDERSTAND!!!
on top of this im going for student council..
on top of THAT I have some parent issues
on top of ALL THAT.... I dont want to do ANY OF IT.and its hard to force myself to do even the easy stuff....
I just dont want to try anymore. PLEASE make it easier. but there's nothing you can do... i'm wasting time writing this...

Mono e' Mono

Rylea, id be glad to come and visit. Actually, i need someone to talk to too. Kinda funny. Im on house arrest for the next few weeks, but im expected to find a job. Ironic, right? =P Oh, if you didnt know, i have mono. I sorta put it as the title. Dont worry, i didnt lick, sneeze onto, cough near, or even look deeply at the hot chocolate i brought you. It was not an attempt on your life. I promise. Im laughing so hard right now. Doctors gave me Tylenol + Codine as basic sleeping meds, and im practically bouncing off walls. Soo much fun!!!!!!!! Oh before i forget. To C, The incubation period for it is 3 to 4 weeks. You are in the clear.

Anyway, Rylea, pneumonia is way worse than mono. I actually feel no pain or aches right now. Then again i have taken soooo many drugs within the past hour. I wonder if this what being high feels like. I have someone to ask who keeps lying to me about it, but i decided that because she lied, more than once, and broke a promise, im not her friend anymore. Im talking about C, but not C. Make sense? =P If you must know, you know my number. =D Call anytime.

Haha. I did something today that was so mean. While i was going to drop off my prescription, i took a flashlight and flashed it at oncoming traffic. Awesomeness. And vanilla ice cream soothes the throat. You learn so much.

Good Night Rylea. Unless you call, then thats fine. I dont feel tired at all.

Mad Rylea is a no bueno

True story... haha I'm not angry right now, but i'm kinda upset that i have no control, and that theres really no one i can talk to around here. I want someone to come over for a little bit just so i dont feel so lonely because i've mulled around the house for a week, and sick rylea is no bueno either. I just collapsed walking from the chair to the tv. wow. AND i'm on drugs. goodness gracious.I look pretty much like a sick person... so i dont want anyone to come over that hasnt seen me look like a hobo... a very pale, skeletonish , hobo. yeah... i'm not looking angelina jolie hot right now( though if your into lindsey lohan, come on over) Annnyyywhooooo. Get better soon brooks. I'm very tired of answering the question " how are you" gosh. i may seem like an attention hog, but seriously. i need to think about someone else. i dont care what i feel like right now. so annyyy whoooooo. Yup. pretty much thats all. I'm trying to get better, but theres not much i can do.

Dear Rylea,

I sincerely hope you feel better. If there is something that you want, whether it be an extra blanket, food, or even just someone to talk to, don't hesitate to call me. Ill help you out anyway i can. Well, except for the next day or two. Swollen tonsil. I'm trying to convince my mom to let them take them out with surgery! I hope she lets me get a tonsillectomy!!! It'd be such fun. Ice cream and pudding for a week! Psh. It would also be the first time I've ever gone under the knife. Adventure!! I'm keeping you in my prayers to heal like X-men's Wolverine. Just don't adopt his temper. Ugh. Mad Rylea is a no bueno. =P

Feel better. Call me. When you can speak.

Jameson

Hello from hell.

BAASSSSIICAALLYYYY heres the story.
I am major sick. ( BRONCHITIS )

I went to the ER because I couldnt breathe

Drugs do nothing.

( except make me insanely loopy)

I can walk across a room

I look like I'm a ghost

I feel like I'm dying

I want someone to talk to, but i cant talk without coughing

MUCH thanks to people who have done stuff for me, whether it was just a get well soon or a cup of hot chocolate ( sorry brooksie, but i really didnt like it :))

I cant taste anything

I can text... and have been pretty much nonstop though my hands ache.

They said i wont be 100% for a few weeks so watch my back please

I am falling into a major like with a boy.


THE END.

A day in the life...

So I know that I wasn't so nice last time. Whoops. I feel bad. But i cant take it back. Ill be more careful. Sort of. Punch 'Jameson'. Its okay anonymous commentor. He'll accept it and live on. Just as everyone who reads should. I appreciate everyone's comments.

On A dIfFeReNt ToPiC!!!!::::

The Great Rylea is very sick. I don't know what she has or how she got sick, but she is. I brought her some hot chocolate the other day. Hope it helped.

Also, Sydney Trotter was too. But it was the stomach flu. She is on the mend.

Stay strong Rylea, I (hopefully we ((the readers))) are all thinking of you.

Rylea, if you read this and are not at school tomorrow, ill try to make some more hot chocolate and bring it to you. So, be prepared.

Oh and by the way. I am desperately looking for a job. Any ideas or hits on places that are hiring. You know who I am. Call me. I cant text until I am no longer unemployed. Bummer, right???

Oh and by the way #2. This is for the readers. Dont just read and say oh cool. Comment. =D And Rylea has some great stories of her own on here. Maybe check them out too.

Good Night World.

What?!

This is cray cray!!! i've been posting for two years and have NEVER gotten 3 comments! DANNNGG. gosh. Brooks is just way more interesting I guess.

Heres jameson:) new poster dont freak.

so, the person that just posted isnt me... its a him. Named JAMESON. who wanted to be able to post on my blog.. so i let him. Yup. pretty cool. Herreeesss jamesy!! ( kinda ironic.. his name isnt rylea..

Introduction to Jameson

My name is not Rylea. Lets get that out there now. I do claim she is probably my best friend. I tell her anything and everything. Those who read this blog may or may not know me. I shall keep my identity hidden. Anyone who does know me, please respect that and keep it hidden as well. My name from now until forever shall be, Jameson.

I have joined this blog and have been given the privilege to add my own posts with a goal in mind. Or a few goals.

1. To get others to read it.
2. So i have another reason to read what the great and powerful Rylea has posted.
3. To make myself known while staying hidden under an ninja-like mask. And
4. To watch over the world for tyranny and attempt to stop it with my awesome super abilities.

Sounds like a plan, right? Wrong. theres also much information to be given.

So to start of my series with an EXCITING story. I call it the Lovely Story of B and D.

THIS HAS BEEN CENCOREEDDDD

Isnt it such a great story?! I love happy endings.

Dnag!!! I think my first post was a success!!! Ill have to do this more often. Geez, it takes forever though. I give you props for posting so many times. It's a skill that is worth having.

Those who read, thank you. Tell your friends. Have your friends tell their friends. New readers, Welcome.

Once here, now gone. So new, so strong.

Time to go. Farewell.

Been fun. Been swell.

Until next time.

-Jameson

:))))))))))))))))

DANCED. NO like i FREAKING DANCED. I didnt care who watched, and I didnt care what people said, I did it, and I did it well:) We came up with a few new hilarious dance moves ( when i say we I mean Madi Schraft, Ashtynn Glenn, Tori Pomo, Kristin Racel, and ... ohmy goodness, this short blonde girl i dont even know the name of but she's awesome.) WE came up with the CIELING FAN, THE PIZZA GIRL, THE REFRIGERATOR, THE LAWN MOWER, and sooo many more:) they were freaking hilarious! oh yeah, and THE GROCERY CART. gosh I had a good night:) after the whole freaking dramatic freak out with jake cause he's getting on my nerves.... lol well anyway. Someone told me that he was weird last night... dont know if i should believe it. I guess people shouldnt tell me what i have to get to know myself.

I dont even know .

I dont even know his favorite song.
I dont even know his Middle name.
I dont even know what he wants to do When he grows up and moves away
I dont even know who his mother is
I dont even know his favorite team
I dont even know who he wishes he was, who he's been, or his struggle to get here
I dont even know who this boy is.
I dont even know why I dont walk away
This intrigue pulling me farther away
Pulls me closer in some strange way
I dont even know what he does on the weekends
I dont even know his middle school crush
I dont even know what he wants from me
I dont even know.. I dont even know
I dont even know why I want to know
But I want to know all of these things
I want this to be more than a surface
I want this crush to run deeper
I want him to care about who i am
I want to not even know , that I know, that I dont even know what I want to know.
But I want to know it.. none the less.

TIME TO BE DEEP...

I know.. these are boring. But get over it. (:
Everything is coming into view. Its like someone took away the magnifying glass I was looking at the world with, and here I am. Lost. Because my world is so insignificant to some person that is looking at my world with a blurry lens. My lens is clear when it comes to a very select group, and I dont know how I can make it clear for everyone, because other peoples bias are affecting my own. They shouldnt, and I should control the information about other people that I listen to, but I want to listen to the ailments of my select. This world is HUGE! I cant possibly meet everyone in it... but I want to. I want to help everyone with SOMETHING... and that's basically impossible...but If I knew everyone's story, then I couldnt help but love everyone, whether they treat me like crap or not. My lens should be clear. My lenses are not clear. My paradigms need shifting. I need to focus. I cant focus because I have to focus on things like what I'm wearing, and how my hair looks, which SUCKS. I hate having to look good for people, but I want the opportunity to be friends with everyone, and everyone thinks that I should look a certain way... so I do. This year, i need to change someone's life. Literally. I'm going to help someone so they never forget it. Not for me, for them. I need to help someone. They need this. I will know who they are when I meet them. For now my lens is clearing. My mind is focusing, but i'm going to leave it at this.

HERE BROOKs HAPPY?!?!

Hoookaaayyy. So i'm not saying anything about anything on this . You heard the story yesterday and i dont care to reidderate it . (sp?) anywho. I'm going to write a list of random things just for you brooksie. OH WAIT!! i'll show you Jessie's back fence notes! THEY ARE FREAKIN HILARITY!

DAY 1 :Chipmunks…. Yup. That’s squeakin’ good. ( got any acorns….)

DAy2 :Whoa. There are actually nice people in the world… wow. WHERE DO THEY HIDE??

DAY 3.

Infiltrated the nice person club…

They are boring.

And sort of irritating

DAy 4

There were socks in my soup…

I don’t like soup anymore…

DAY 5

Did you know that Most people kill themselves on Monday????

I now know why

DaY whatever

I stopped counting. The man taught me how to count. I’m fightin’ the man…man.

Day 7

The word epic is the shiz man.Lets go back to the wonderful world where “who stole my crayons???” was the most dramatic thing that happened… and the end of the world kind of-ish..

Yes I know. I'm brilliaannttt!!! lol so those did come from my mind. dont doubt it. anywho. Yeah, I took a nap today, and so i wont be tired for a while... dnag! bahaha .anywhoooo... so i was on my trampoline today, jumping with joe, in a dress ( yes i had shorts on underneath... ) i think it looks cool to do flips in a dress, so i did. I was wearing it from standards night... yeah i feel bad, but its always boring. anyway, so i was doing a front layout-walkout, and i landed wrong on my ankle. It hurt really bad, but i wanted to get that trick down, so i kept going. MISTAKE! lol My ankle is going to be fine i hope, but if its the size of my face tomorrow you know why. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Yeah, i'm going to go ... but later i'm actually write something worth reading... so you should read that one instead... it wont be funny like this one, but it WILL be really good i think:) deep is the word. Mmkaywellnight!

What helps

There are about 3 guys that i'm constantly flirting with. No names mentioned. Anywho, I dont really know who I have a crush on... and i'll get in these really great conversations with all of them. I get really happy and i have to have an outlet so here are my list of things to do when you're happy and confused all at once:
1. Do random flips on a trampoline until you get it out of your system
2. Scream into a pillow*
3. Dance around your living room*
4. Do a handstand and think about it
5. Hold your breath...*
6. Talk to someone you really trust
7. Drink V8 juice
( The ones with asterisks should not be done in the presence of others unless you want to be instituted into an asylum... well at least the way i do them..)

HAppy new years!

:) I dont know what this next year will bring. I dont know what people I will meet that will change my life. I dont know what relationships will be strengthened, and which will fall apart. I dont know what opportunities for success, and failure will come. I know I will welcome them with open arms... I just want my life to be like it is now... just about perfect:)