I dont even know .

I dont even know his favorite song.
I dont even know his Middle name.
I dont even know what he wants to do When he grows up and moves away
I dont even know who his mother is
I dont even know his favorite team
I dont even know who he wishes he was, who he's been, or his struggle to get here
I dont even know who this boy is.
I dont even know why I dont walk away
This intrigue pulling me farther away
Pulls me closer in some strange way
I dont even know what he does on the weekends
I dont even know his middle school crush
I dont even know what he wants from me
I dont even know.. I dont even know
I dont even know why I want to know
But I want to know all of these things
I want this to be more than a surface
I want this crush to run deeper
I want him to care about who i am
I want to not even know , that I know, that I dont even know what I want to know.
But I want to know it.. none the less.

TIME TO BE DEEP...

I know.. these are boring. But get over it. (:
Everything is coming into view. Its like someone took away the magnifying glass I was looking at the world with, and here I am. Lost. Because my world is so insignificant to some person that is looking at my world with a blurry lens. My lens is clear when it comes to a very select group, and I dont know how I can make it clear for everyone, because other peoples bias are affecting my own. They shouldnt, and I should control the information about other people that I listen to, but I want to listen to the ailments of my select. This world is HUGE! I cant possibly meet everyone in it... but I want to. I want to help everyone with SOMETHING... and that's basically impossible...but If I knew everyone's story, then I couldnt help but love everyone, whether they treat me like crap or not. My lens should be clear. My lenses are not clear. My paradigms need shifting. I need to focus. I cant focus because I have to focus on things like what I'm wearing, and how my hair looks, which SUCKS. I hate having to look good for people, but I want the opportunity to be friends with everyone, and everyone thinks that I should look a certain way... so I do. This year, i need to change someone's life. Literally. I'm going to help someone so they never forget it. Not for me, for them. I need to help someone. They need this. I will know who they are when I meet them. For now my lens is clearing. My mind is focusing, but i'm going to leave it at this.

HERE BROOKs HAPPY?!?!

Hoookaaayyy. So i'm not saying anything about anything on this . You heard the story yesterday and i dont care to reidderate it . (sp?) anywho. I'm going to write a list of random things just for you brooksie. OH WAIT!! i'll show you Jessie's back fence notes! THEY ARE FREAKIN HILARITY!

DAY 1 :Chipmunks…. Yup. That’s squeakin’ good. ( got any acorns….)

DAy2 :Whoa. There are actually nice people in the world… wow. WHERE DO THEY HIDE??

DAY 3.

Infiltrated the nice person club…

They are boring.

And sort of irritating

DAy 4

There were socks in my soup…

I don’t like soup anymore…

DAY 5

Did you know that Most people kill themselves on Monday????

I now know why

DaY whatever

I stopped counting. The man taught me how to count. I’m fightin’ the man…man.

Day 7

The word epic is the shiz man.Lets go back to the wonderful world where “who stole my crayons???” was the most dramatic thing that happened… and the end of the world kind of-ish..

Yes I know. I'm brilliaannttt!!! lol so those did come from my mind. dont doubt it. anywho. Yeah, I took a nap today, and so i wont be tired for a while... dnag! bahaha .anywhoooo... so i was on my trampoline today, jumping with joe, in a dress ( yes i had shorts on underneath... ) i think it looks cool to do flips in a dress, so i did. I was wearing it from standards night... yeah i feel bad, but its always boring. anyway, so i was doing a front layout-walkout, and i landed wrong on my ankle. It hurt really bad, but i wanted to get that trick down, so i kept going. MISTAKE! lol My ankle is going to be fine i hope, but if its the size of my face tomorrow you know why. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Yeah, i'm going to go ... but later i'm actually write something worth reading... so you should read that one instead... it wont be funny like this one, but it WILL be really good i think:) deep is the word. Mmkaywellnight!