haha from left to right, Ashley, Austrey,Kiffyn, Brittany, and me( on the bottom)

Life. as we know it.

Life as i know it is spinning in circles. Fun right? its like a carnival ride i cant get off of. I have so many people i know i could talk to , but the thing is... i dont know if i want to yet. I'm not comfortable talking about him yet. yeah i'm not even safe talking about it here, Because there is a vulture waiting to tear it apart and twist my words. Why do you think i havent written in so long...gosh. Well, I fixed the whole Josh thing. I felt like the worst person in the world for doing it, but i told him my standards, and that i wasnt willing to break them for him.. but i did lie to him and tell him i still liked him.. though i never really did in the first place. Then there's Drake who's leaving town tonight. that got complicated. I'm not sure I really " like " him, just because in the back of my mind i've always known he's leaving me. but it was pretty much amazing while he was here... i guess you could call him my rebound. So , here I am re-writing this a week later... the stuff before this is all from then.. the rest, deleted. Like i want the memory of it to be. Last night was amazing. I spent the night at Kiffyns with Ashley, after hanging with Brittany and Austrey. All of that after our camp t-shirt creating session:D haha mine are awesome! anyways, we went to Kiffyns, ate pizza bread ( amazing!!!) haha then we totally dressed up in beyond crazy outfits( I was a bumble bee, with a yellow tutu, black feather boa, my hair done up in "antennae" a yellow shirt, skinny jeans and bright yellow flip flops:D oh and dont forget the blue green and pink eyeshadow that went to my eyebrows.. revenge from ash and austrey:D:D hahahaha) In the process we laughed and took so many pictures you cannot even begin to imagine! oh my goodness! My camera was dead for most of it... but I got a few pictures:D Kiffyn was from the 80's, Ash was a rocker princess:) Brittany was a gator doctor, and austrey was... amazing:D another princess:D haha our costumes were bright, our hair teased, and we were laughing so hard! my favorite part had to be when I told Kiffyn to get something more "ugly" on, and was looking through her closet. Brittany picked up my Pajama Shirt off the bed( without knowing it was mine) and said here kiffyn! wear this! I dieeeedd!!! i was laughing so hard i couldnt breathe! We went outside to go to smiths and buy toilet paper... a car drove by and i told everyone to wave.. but they just said "HEY HEY HEY!!" and turned the car around, we ran into the house screaming and lauging..( we found out later that they were just turning into thier driveway.. baahahahahah!!) Brother Smith ended up taking us to Smiths, where we saw Rachel Purcell and her dad... bishop Purcell. hes not our current bishop.. but still .! haha everyone at smiths was laughing thier buts off at us:D we bought the cheapest tp we could find.. and we were off. we each grabbed two and ran out of the car to the Wolfes house:)we got them SO GOOD. Someone called car and we ran to hide.. but the car stopped... and the lady got out. I bolted. In flip-flops. Everyone else came after, and we laughed till we cried:DWe Dropped off Brittany, and Austrey and went back to the Smiths:D we decided we were going to bake something... hahahah Gooey cake!!! imagine this, a pound of powder sugar in a mixer... kiffyn misses and turns it on high... oh my goodness it was everywhere:D we ate so much of the batter i didnt think there would be enough left for the cake:Dwe baked it in too smal of a pan, and the middle was still batter when we took it out.. and ate half of it anyway:D we played truth( no one ever accepts dares:P) and I got crowned the official queen of random:) I Swear I'm not gonna say anything... exept HOSPITAL:) bahahahahahahah!!!! we were high off the fun of the night, and caught up in being the teenagers that we are.. we did a MASH.Cracked me up:D i live in a Shack in Iowa and Married Drake for love.bahahaha! i'm still getting married in the SAN DIEGO TEMPLE.. because trust me thats seriously where i'm getting married:D I'll upload pictures when i get them... oh yeah and one more fun fact, i didnt get up till 2:P hahahaha we stayed up LATE and Kiffyn and I watched so you think you can dance after Billy left( he came over while i was asleep and fell asleep on her couch after football:)) well, that was just about the most fun i've ever had:D I'm so glad. I just wish i couldve pushed brittany out of her shell.. I tried, and i know how she feels.. all the inside jokes and stuff..But I think she had fun anyways:D Well comment and tell me what you think of my crazy night:D:D:D