It kills me

Two weeks ago i could have sworn no one would care if i left. I dont have really strong relationships with... anyone really... except Sydney.
Maybe if I leave they'll realize what they're missing...?
Maybe that was rude of me to say, but i dont care.
I didnt get what I was looking for...
I'm jumbled. really. jumbled.

Legacy , guilt trips and girls camp

I'm listing right now. enjoy
1.I'm going to do the pro's and cons of going to shadow vs. going to legacy...
2.i'm scared of the outcome because i already know where i'm going next year...
3. Spencer McKee's going to guilt trip me for forever apparantly...
PROS ( of legacy)
-ASL classes...
-I'd possibly get to do StuCo
-I was told to
-I know a few people there...
-its an indoor school
-Volleyball....
-other sports too
- Theater
-New people,
-new experiences
-maybe i'd get asked on dates...
-it would be easy to get to work.

CONS(of legacy)
-I'd have to leave all my great friends at shadow
-I'd get guilt tripped by spencer
-Mr. Barnson.
-outside my comfort zone.
-i dont know if i'd be on Yearbook...

PROS ( of shadow)
-good friends
-already in social groups.
-inside comfort zone
-I know the layout of the school
-I wouldnt get guilt tripped
-dont have to re-register
-I can do Yearbook, easy

CONS (of shadow)
- I cant do sports
-I dont get asked on dates...
- Its an outside school
- I cant take sign language
- I hate the theater teacher
- I know its not where i'm SUPPOSED to be
-I cant shake the above feeling

I'm still all jumbled up inside. I'll miss Shadow... but I'm excited for the unknown.