I love falling :)

I'm scared because i know this will never work
its so cliche
but it feels like it should be different...
its not.
its wonderful and perfect and exciting and
NERVE WRACKING!!!
I dont know why I have to find the right guy here...
i mean i dont even know if he IS the right guy
but i feel like i've known him forever and its been less then a week since i met him... Yesterday was our first date but it feels like an eternity.
I'm keeping it level headed, I promise. I'm allowing myself to be set up to get hurt, i realize this. I'm not in a movie, this is real life , and its real hard.But i think i deserve to be liked, you know? I deserve to have someone to care... but I dont understand why it has to happen here and i realize i dont know him... he could be lying about everything! But he seems so genuine, and he's so sweet, and perfect for me! i'm not going to lie, I dont get it.
I'm so confused because this is exactly what i wanted, and now that i have it, I'm absolutely terrified that the consequential heartbreak will break me even farther. I know its going to happen. I'm not stupid, and niether is he. We wont ever see eachother. This cant work. No matter how much i want it to, or he wants it too, its just a summer fling, and i cant let myself forget it:/
Falling for a boy who has every intention of catching me, but cant hold on...