dislikes her drunk father.

that basically spells it out... boredom in the lamest saturday i've had in a while, supposed to go to the dance, so i could literally dance with justin, but no. My dad decided to get drunk. whoops. shoot me.

So tonight....

Was amazing! I left for the thespian party with my dad, and got there... about half an hour late. I walked in just as they started voting for offices:) Kelseigh is our new president, with Kayla our vice, Aubrey is our secretary, Andrew(:( )is our publicity director ... ( insert correct name here) is our treasurer and Katie and I are historians:) yay!!! we had fun in the hallway just playing around taking pictures:) After, they got food, we played twister... and then Danielle and i snuck off to my spot on the couch in the lobby ( a.k.a THE BEST PLACE EVER!!!) we took pics there, then out at the mustang clock( pictures soon.. i hope:)) and then we played a game... we used our bodies to represent people, and items and things.. one was an airplane, we had trash can, exit sign, fire extinguisher:) it was hilarious:) we played mad gab, for a while and played around some more, then Danielle gave me a ride to the Morrows for thier movie night.. i had completely missed the movie of course, but it was fun:) a few minutes after i came, Ash and Austin left, and Katie, Shaun, Dallin and I played spoons, then egyptian cats...? something egyptian:) then we kind of just talked for a long time till it was time to go:) School, church, the dance, shauns lack of dating, those were all topics:) haha. I got home, brushed my teeth, threw my hair up and got on Pajamas, and here i am:) writing something that seems very inconsistent with the fun little shpiel i did earlier today:) but today was a good day. I knew it was going to be:)

So... life is cray cray.

Hello:) I havent talked since my fun week back in ... january i think it was... sorry trying to block it out:) I'm doing a good job!:) lol so as you can see i'm happy... ( no idea why... I am after all at home) but I am... Me and "Boy" are still good... but we have this little dance thing that he cant seem to get past... ugh! bugging me!:P

So the image above.. yeah that was done a long time ago, but I went back with my new camera ( birthday was a few weeks ago.. yeah lets not talk about that either) Lets hope no one that could possibly post this anywhere he could see it reads my blog... haha no one does anyway:) lol. I took this picture after the ward luau actually, which turned out AMAZING! it was sooo fun! haha afterwords we rode in the back of billy's truck and got sonic we felt like delinquints:) Mormons are crazy amazing:)My gardins looking good too:) My grapes are growing and the roses are blooming perfectly, its my own little iowa:) I miss it.... so i've been thinking about this summer, and well, I've decided to volunteer. I've decided either at A valley health system hospital, or at some kind of childrens center:) I need to get on that, but the application wont load on my computer. I have EFY and Girls camp and Intermurals for cross country to look forward to as well... this year has gone by quickly. It always seems that way when your looking back doesnt it? I dont know. It just seems like life is on a movie screen, and though i'm supposed to be a character in the movie, i'm just a viewer. Its a wierd feeling trust me! I'm just waiting for it to hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm now a thespian, and have decided to do cross country next year, I got on yearbook, and have fallen into a strange, sideways routine that involves the unpredictability of coming home. Today Makenna and Mom were sick. SWINE FLU OINK OINK!:) lol It'd be kinda cool to say you had swine flu wouldnt it? haha I dont know why everyone is freaking out about it! Our pool is up, and over spring break I went to California with Charlie, which was crazy amazing! We got snowed on in Big bear and i froze my butt off... on the other hand its supposed to break 100 this sunday here in vegas... odd how fast it heats up. I am participating in Powderpuff, and just got finished being on the set of Ozma of Oz.. i was a rock, and a good one at that:) lol I made my own yearbook for the year which i need to get signed, and have the Thespian party and a party at the Morrows tonight:) I dont know which one i'm going to yet.. which isnt good because.. well it starts in like 20 minutes.. i'll probably end up going to the thespian party, then catching whatever piece of Shauns party i can. My classes are packing up on the work ( except Geometry THANK THE LORD!!!!!I HAVE A B!!!!!!!!) I've found tons of new music too:) its good stuff! Forever the sickest kids, owl city, the summer set, eric hutchinson:) its getting me through:) haha My friends are great, a big thanks to all of them:) I've changed... even since I wrote last, and I'd like to thank them for sticking with me through it all:) you know who you are! if you want to know about "boy" then keep reading if not... well skip a few paragraphs. He's been so amazing, i dont know how to explain it... he's helped me through so much. Sometimes though we "dance" which is what i call him sortof kindof in a way "not-ignoring me" haha I'll go to talk to him and he'll nod then talk to someone else then i'll be talking to other people and he'll come to the group... but then leave if i address him directly. He probably doesnt even realize he's doing it.. .and well i'm not even sure its happening. I'm probably just reading things that arent there.. which i do alot. But other than that he's just one of those boys you want to spend every second of your day with:)

Ok back to non-boy stuff:) I now have four bracelets I wear constantly, One from ashley, one from Kiffyn, one from Charlie and one as a promise to myself to be happy with what i have and do the best i can to be "perfect". I'm not saying i'm good at it... and i'm making tons of mistakes, but thats ok, i'm human:) I know i havent done a very good job of filling you in on the past few months, but i'll try to write more often( no promises... i'm really bad at this i told you!) well i decided to throw a crazy pic in there for fun:) thats me eating leftover peanut butter of the bag that held my celery sticks:) have a GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!