What kind of road map do we have? On this road we are on, what kind of directions are there? We have a conscience, like stop-lights telling us when we need to stop for red, and maybe even turn back, to fix the problems we have created, slow for yellow, and think about what we've done wrong, and green for a good chioce. But is there anything telling us where to go? Are we blind to the way tomorrow will be? I dont believe so, I know the plan that has been set for me to a point. No matter what happens I know I have the opportunity to make the right choice, so why do some people choose to do what is wrong? Do we need a rule book instructing us on what is o.k. to do, and what is good? I believe that people are good truly on the inside, but that some people made a wrong turn, or had one made for them. Some people think that they will be pushed in the right direction without any effort on thier part. Sometimes I think that people only do the wrong, because the right, wouldnt upset anyone. Because someone upset them, they need to upset someone back. Like it's there job to get back at them. But sometimes its not thier choice. Sometimes something bigger than anyone, and everything interferes. Some things are not in our hands.Some things, we dont know which road to take unless we ask. I'm asking are you?
My name is Rylea, whats yours?
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Today
Today -main events and things that just randomly pop into my head as i write:D
Seminary was fun this morning, we talked abut Mark 1:1-23 and how it's shorthand for whats been going on in Matthew. The guys... Robby, Spencer Steven, Scott, and Collin talked about Nacho Libre... a movie I have never seen though it sounded funny. Tyler wasnt there today so I sat next to Eryn she is the awesomest!As a class(once the boys quieted :D) we talked about how the people who didnt believe in Christ at the time tried to prove him wrong, and how some people were so desperate for his help that they tore off the roof of the place he was staying, which was jam packed with people. Jesus then healed a man sick of the Palsy, and the scribes, though they witnessed it happen, still didn't believe. Were trying to learn Matthew 6:24 for scripture mastery let me see if i got it.. correct me if I'm wrong.
"No man can serve to masters for either he will love the one and hate the other, or else he will hold to the one and despise the other, ye cannot serve god and mammon."
HA! yes I got it! and I didnt even look ! I promise:D We got out and as usual the other class hadn't got out yet so I walked the long way,and looked up at the clouds, it was AHHHMAZING! they were perfect, with the sky so very blue, in contrast with the steeple, and the clouds brilliant white.
2nd period rolled around since it's an even day today, and I did the normal biology routine, came in with Austrey, grabbed my warm-up, got out my notes, turned in my homework, and did the warmup questions. I had just turned in my warmup, when an aide walked in with about 7 request to see the councellor forms. I crossed my fingers, grabbed the edge of the table, and closed my eyes. Austrey looked at me with I'm sorry eyes, and I knew it was over but a girl could hope cant she? she called my name 2nd to last, and I couldnt explain my emotion... I was upset that I was getting transferred out of my only class with Austrey, Eric, and Spencer, but I was exited, I love surprises, and I knew it was an opportunity to meet new people and a chance to prove to myself that nothing was that bad, so I got the paper from the counselor, and walked in a melancholy manner back up to 2nd period biology for the last time. Mrs. Bumgarner signed the sheet and I turned around, looking for the last time at Spencer and Austrey, she gave me a "Good luck" look and spencer gave me a "Sorry,but its not sooo bad" look... I gave the best "I'm ok im brave look that I could," to both of them, and walked out. I couldnt seem to get the knot out of my stomach, the aching you get, when your anxious for something new.
I found the substitute for my new gym teacher in the main gym, getting ready to call roll. I gave him the sheet and asked him to sign it, only then looking around to realize I had Tara with me. I smiled, this couldnt be so bad. As I walked back to the counselor, a sigh escaped me. This would be O.K. I realized. I knew someone, I wasn't alone. I asked a few questions then walked back to gym class. I caught myself smiling every now and then, thinking , this isn't so bad, what if I have someone cool in my next class too. I dressed out and got to the track, walking a lap looking for Tara, then realizing she was on the bleachers, sitting next to her while everyone else walked. I wanted to run ,but Ididnt want to go alone , and because Tara had a concussion recently, she couldn't come with me. So we talked, about the boys she likes and the boys I like until it was time to go in the gym. I played with Katherine and a pretty horrible ball until it was time to go change. It felt good to get my clothes back on and Tara tried to steal my Sunchips. So I had to keep stealing them back until the end of the period.
I got to biology H for the second time that day, and sat down in my old spot, the butterflys returning. I watched as students trickled in looking for a farmiliar face, searching, when Caitlin walked in *Whew! someone I know, then a miracle, Austin walked in! YES!!! Someone that I've known for forever!I was soooo exited that I had a friend I could've jumped up and hugged him right then and there but that would've appeared strange, I mean c'mon were in a 9th grade class, that doesn't exactly know what maturity is yet.so I held in my hug for the time being and instead smiled as big as I could manage without murdering my lips by way of braces. Before class I talked to him and Caitlin for a few minutes, Austin somehow deluded himself into thinking that the kid next to him liked me, but I didnt believe him, and before he could argue, we started taking notes on the skeletal system, then watching a movie about a little girl named Lisa breaking her arm... I wanted to throw up, I have a pretty high pain threshold when it comes to myself but its torture watching, even someone I dont know, in pain. How sad is that? We started another movie, and the bell rang so Austin, and I walked down to Lunch.
Emily, Ashley, Connor, Tyler, Katie, Colby, Chaura, and Hailey sat with us, with Tara coming over on occasion to greet us. We laughed though lunch talking about a book they were reading as if it were a soap opera, Colby made a mistake and said no one above the age of 15 could see it, though they made it a rated R movie. Someone then had the genius idea to start poking people... If you've ever seen me squeel, you know its not a pretty sight, and I was doing it repeatedly.
We walked to English (Austin's now in that class too:D) and we almost had to run to catch up to him. McShea was funny as usual, though we were taking notes on Essay structure, which weren't too bad. Emily sent me"mini-notes"in which she tore off a small piece of paper then drew what a paper looks like on them.. its very cute I must say. I decided her new nickname was Em, because that matches her personality very well. English was over quickly, and I walked with Em and Austin to Geometry, talking about our schedule changes or something, i gave them both a hug and walked off to Geometry.
I sat down and took out a pencil, and my notebook, but had to clear them off as soon as the bell rang, because Robicheau told us through his interrogation of Madi (who got all of the answers last period in English)that we had a quiz today. It was on if;then statements and biconditionals, and stuff like that. We turned that in with a sigh of relief and got out notes. He was exited that I did my flashcards because I got an answer right because of them and he asked if I wanted to sit up front, and I denied him:D We got the homework and started it. Justin asked me a question on every problem ,and the girl that sits in front of him(it starts with a K I can never get it right) other than that I sat waiting for the bell to ring and practically ran down the steps to the bus. I was burning up!
I caught Ashley and we walked to the bus, after talking to Connor for a second, then sat across from eachother on the bus. I helped her with her English homework. We unloaded with a polite "Have a great day" and we walked home.
Yesterday's history tomorrow's a mystery, today is a gift thats why its called the present
My name is Rylea, Whats yours?
Seminary was fun this morning, we talked abut Mark 1:1-23 and how it's shorthand for whats been going on in Matthew. The guys... Robby, Spencer Steven, Scott, and Collin talked about Nacho Libre... a movie I have never seen though it sounded funny. Tyler wasnt there today so I sat next to Eryn she is the awesomest!As a class(once the boys quieted :D) we talked about how the people who didnt believe in Christ at the time tried to prove him wrong, and how some people were so desperate for his help that they tore off the roof of the place he was staying, which was jam packed with people. Jesus then healed a man sick of the Palsy, and the scribes, though they witnessed it happen, still didn't believe. Were trying to learn Matthew 6:24 for scripture mastery let me see if i got it.. correct me if I'm wrong.
"No man can serve to masters for either he will love the one and hate the other, or else he will hold to the one and despise the other, ye cannot serve god and mammon."
HA! yes I got it! and I didnt even look ! I promise:D We got out and as usual the other class hadn't got out yet so I walked the long way,and looked up at the clouds, it was AHHHMAZING! they were perfect, with the sky so very blue, in contrast with the steeple, and the clouds brilliant white.
2nd period rolled around since it's an even day today, and I did the normal biology routine, came in with Austrey, grabbed my warm-up, got out my notes, turned in my homework, and did the warmup questions. I had just turned in my warmup, when an aide walked in with about 7 request to see the councellor forms. I crossed my fingers, grabbed the edge of the table, and closed my eyes. Austrey looked at me with I'm sorry eyes, and I knew it was over but a girl could hope cant she? she called my name 2nd to last, and I couldnt explain my emotion... I was upset that I was getting transferred out of my only class with Austrey, Eric, and Spencer, but I was exited, I love surprises, and I knew it was an opportunity to meet new people and a chance to prove to myself that nothing was that bad, so I got the paper from the counselor, and walked in a melancholy manner back up to 2nd period biology for the last time. Mrs. Bumgarner signed the sheet and I turned around, looking for the last time at Spencer and Austrey, she gave me a "Good luck" look and spencer gave me a "Sorry,but its not sooo bad" look... I gave the best "I'm ok im brave look that I could," to both of them, and walked out. I couldnt seem to get the knot out of my stomach, the aching you get, when your anxious for something new.
I found the substitute for my new gym teacher in the main gym, getting ready to call roll. I gave him the sheet and asked him to sign it, only then looking around to realize I had Tara with me. I smiled, this couldnt be so bad. As I walked back to the counselor, a sigh escaped me. This would be O.K. I realized. I knew someone, I wasn't alone. I asked a few questions then walked back to gym class. I caught myself smiling every now and then, thinking , this isn't so bad, what if I have someone cool in my next class too. I dressed out and got to the track, walking a lap looking for Tara, then realizing she was on the bleachers, sitting next to her while everyone else walked. I wanted to run ,but Ididnt want to go alone , and because Tara had a concussion recently, she couldn't come with me. So we talked, about the boys she likes and the boys I like until it was time to go in the gym. I played with Katherine and a pretty horrible ball until it was time to go change. It felt good to get my clothes back on and Tara tried to steal my Sunchips. So I had to keep stealing them back until the end of the period.
I got to biology H for the second time that day, and sat down in my old spot, the butterflys returning. I watched as students trickled in looking for a farmiliar face, searching, when Caitlin walked in *Whew! someone I know, then a miracle, Austin walked in! YES!!! Someone that I've known for forever!I was soooo exited that I had a friend I could've jumped up and hugged him right then and there but that would've appeared strange, I mean c'mon were in a 9th grade class, that doesn't exactly know what maturity is yet.so I held in my hug for the time being and instead smiled as big as I could manage without murdering my lips by way of braces. Before class I talked to him and Caitlin for a few minutes, Austin somehow deluded himself into thinking that the kid next to him liked me, but I didnt believe him, and before he could argue, we started taking notes on the skeletal system, then watching a movie about a little girl named Lisa breaking her arm... I wanted to throw up, I have a pretty high pain threshold when it comes to myself but its torture watching, even someone I dont know, in pain. How sad is that? We started another movie, and the bell rang so Austin, and I walked down to Lunch.
Emily, Ashley, Connor, Tyler, Katie, Colby, Chaura, and Hailey sat with us, with Tara coming over on occasion to greet us. We laughed though lunch talking about a book they were reading as if it were a soap opera, Colby made a mistake and said no one above the age of 15 could see it, though they made it a rated R movie. Someone then had the genius idea to start poking people... If you've ever seen me squeel, you know its not a pretty sight, and I was doing it repeatedly.
We walked to English (Austin's now in that class too:D) and we almost had to run to catch up to him. McShea was funny as usual, though we were taking notes on Essay structure, which weren't too bad. Emily sent me"mini-notes"in which she tore off a small piece of paper then drew what a paper looks like on them.. its very cute I must say. I decided her new nickname was Em, because that matches her personality very well. English was over quickly, and I walked with Em and Austin to Geometry, talking about our schedule changes or something, i gave them both a hug and walked off to Geometry.
I sat down and took out a pencil, and my notebook, but had to clear them off as soon as the bell rang, because Robicheau told us through his interrogation of Madi (who got all of the answers last period in English)that we had a quiz today. It was on if;then statements and biconditionals, and stuff like that. We turned that in with a sigh of relief and got out notes. He was exited that I did my flashcards because I got an answer right because of them and he asked if I wanted to sit up front, and I denied him:D We got the homework and started it. Justin asked me a question on every problem ,and the girl that sits in front of him(it starts with a K I can never get it right) other than that I sat waiting for the bell to ring and practically ran down the steps to the bus. I was burning up!
I caught Ashley and we walked to the bus, after talking to Connor for a second, then sat across from eachother on the bus. I helped her with her English homework. We unloaded with a polite "Have a great day" and we walked home.
Yesterday's history tomorrow's a mystery, today is a gift thats why its called the present
My name is Rylea, Whats yours?
welcome:D september 29th
On the road to finding out who you are what kind of transportation do you use? Do you choose to ride in a car, secluded from the world as you watch from a safe distance the outside world with all of its hardships and trials speeding by, bloking the bad completely from your mind, not enjoying your life, just living it. Do you ride a bike?Where you can go as fast as you need, to escape from the things you dont like, but you can still feel the winds of change, cool on your skin, and smell the sweet flowers as you pass. Though you still cant touch them, or really get into them. Are you running? Going just fast enough to rush by the restraints holding us back, feeling the adrenaline rush through your body, looking toward the future for comfort, knowing that someday it will all be o.k.Or do you chose to walk? Feeling everything around you, learning by the details, living for today, smelling the flowers on the road you've chosen. You see the cars pass and you let the bike riders by, but you never regret your decision of staying on the path you chose , you can feel the winds, and smell the flowers, but you can also dance in the rain, and fly in the wind, picking the flowers to put in your hair. Are you one who sit? Not moving forward, but holding on to the past, wishing it were here unstead of making today what you want it to be. you shield yourself from the wind and rain, you pay no attention to those walking, running or riding, all you want is for you to be happy.
I know who I am, in the sense of I know all of the little details about me. What I have done seen, felt, experienced, and loved. I know my favorite color, food,subjects, and music, but what does all that add up to? I know all I need to know.I'd like to think that I would walk, if given a choice but it seems for now I'm running.
My name is Rylea whats yours?
I know who I am, in the sense of I know all of the little details about me. What I have done seen, felt, experienced, and loved. I know my favorite color, food,subjects, and music, but what does all that add up to? I know all I need to know.I'd like to think that I would walk, if given a choice but it seems for now I'm running.
My name is Rylea whats yours?
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