My mom is killing me.

Shes calling the bishop over to our house. She's going to yell at him for telling her to kick Makenna out.... the thing that made my life so much better.She doesnt care about me, all she cares about is them.Joe and Makenna. Its like i'm not even here. Its like i dont matter. She's mad at the church because she feels like they're guilt tripping her... i hate this! I want to say i'm not crying because i feel like my world is falling apart but that isnt gonna happen... just when i thought things were going in the right direction, my mom stops going to church... then breaking standards and now, now I dont fit in AT ALL in my house... Now its going to be SO FREAKING HARD to go to church, because i have no support. from anyone! I wonder why Heavenly father ever EVER thought i could handle this! I feel so... Alone. ... but i know he knows what i'm going through... i know he's there, but i just cant understand! I cant understand why i have to deal with this NOW. I really am the puzzle piece that doesnt fit. And now, i dont fit anywhere at all... Just hope it goes away.