Girlscamp day 1. We( ash and i) got to the stake center first, and unloaded our stuff onto the grass... i was hyper.. like maaaajjooorrlyy. i was greeting everyone by running to them( haha i did a lap around the church as tradition from me and ash.. but she didnt want to so i did it alone:( ), hugging them, and screaming a little... haha anyways, We rode up in sister fisks van talking about... stuff( boys, cars, girls camp etc,)... and it was me, annmarie, brittany, ashley,and austrey. hekca fun. anywhoozer, we got there, took our normal picture with the stimpson sign blah blah blah... then walked down the hill, greeted by our YCL's who had been there a day already, blowing bubbles and such. We walked up to the campsite and i found out my tenting situation... grr... I was with Tuila, Ashley Selby and Chelsea Kroh. I'm not saying i hate them or even dislike them. What i'm saying is My Friends were all in different tents. we had a bedtime. AND they wouldnt let us go to other peoples tents.. i find this MAJORLY retarded. like really?? thats always the best partof girls camp!!!!!! WTHeck!?psh anyways. We unloaded food, put watermelon in the stream that went straight through our campsite, and decorated our tent and such...
we drew pictures on the watermelon, and such and messed around, had lunch ( subway for me whoot!) Did eachothers hair with the vanity in the middle of camp ( we nicknamed it the vainity:)) hahahaha and took pictures... then we had flag and announcements.... and we were off to our first activity.. they got RIGHT on that right?!?!anywhoozer, our first, being a fourth year was the lifeline. if you dont plan on doing it, or have done it before read on... if not well if you do its your loss. They told us to put our possesions on the table and recieved a bandana. I was told twice that it was going to be a quiet process... But girls were still talking . I tried shushing them, but in the end i gave up and just sat there quietly as possible. Then they told us to blindfold ourselves... which i needed help to do... they told us not to peek, because that would cheat us out of this experience. Ash and I promised eachother we'd keep our eyes closed.And i did. They told us we'd be tapped on the back and we were to be led to our destination. I dont remember how long i waited but it was only a few moments before i was tapped. keep in mind my eyes were closed and the whole world was dark. I was led to a rope, and i was told to never let go of it. in one hand was placed an egg. This represented something close and important to me. the MOST important thing to me. I couldnt decide. I didnt know for sure what was most important. he told me that if i needed help, all i had to do was raise my hand. He told me that when i came to the part where my rope went slack that was the end of my journey and i was to raise my hand. he then let go of me and told me to go. i walked forward a bit then was told to wait there. In my mind i thought that something went wrong and the rope broke, but when he kept pushing me back, i realized that this was an obsticle i had to overcome. i felt kind of lost, because i knew it was brother wagner... but i pushed past him using a lot more force than i thought would be nessesary. I kept walking and there was a tree the rope went around. i followed the rope, all the way around then was bombarded with someone else trying to take my egg. they told me to not let it go right? so i pushed and held on tight, never letting it leave my hand... but i didnt even know what it was yet! i pushed them away with force , like i had the first, and this one moved away much easier after i used the force.. i guessed it was a woman.I kept going these stories all similar, my egg never left my hand, i went around anyone trying to get in my way, i was booking it! and then the rope went over some bumpy ground and i tripped and fell into a tree.... it hurt, but i pushed on. through these obsticles, I didnt think much of the significance of this exercise. I could hear people crying... but i wondered why. I got to a point where they were tugging at the rope trying to pull us onto another rope, away from the real one.I went around it finding myself clever for realizing it.. then wondered how many of my friends had fallen for that very same trick. I wondered how many felt lost when i didnt, how many had their egg taken away from them... I got to the end where the rope went slack and started taking off my blindfold. someone whispered in my ear "do you remember the instructions?" i pulled it tight over my eyes and I raised my hand. someone told me i had done a great job, and they led me over to someone who was crying. I hugged them... and they cried. I felt bad so i faked tears... and then was led to sit next to someone. It was Mallory i found out, because we whispered who is this? and then were silent for what felt like an eternity.... They told us after about half an hour to take off our blindfolds. a ton of girls were crying. I wasnt. Sister Wells stood up and Told us how this represented our lives, and how we went through it. I have since then analyzed my behavior a thousand times over. Why didnt i raise my hand for help?.. I thought i didnt need it., I push through life thinking about what others are going through and not spending much time thinking about myself. I try to make others feel strong by crying when they cry. I dont priorotize, and i dont know whats most important to me. i tend to push past obsticles pretending that they are nothing at all when they scar me so deeply, never asking for help until i make a mistake and absolutely CANT do it by myself. I tend to push the devil out of my mind... but he still manages to bring me down. I am one of those people who when told they cant.. do ANYTHING to prove them wrong. ...You can make more assumptions if you wish, because there are plenty more... but thats what i got. on the way down to the next activity i decided that my egg represented my future family. My future husband, and Children. the ones i'll be able to spend eternity with. We go down to the very bottom of the hill, and there is this big web thing. they tell us this story about a spider that made it and we cant touch the web, or talk and blah blah blah. we all have three minutes to get EVERYONE out. we try to get out of theweb without touching the sides at all all of us going different ways. Then one of the Eckersley twins picks up a piece of wood and lifts it up without touching. I thought , Genius! we'll be done in no time! ... but others kept going the hard way, they didnt understand that this way was soooo much easier.... we did it 5 more times, and by then over half were at our sides.... but there were still others. I was holding up the rope with a stick , as were about two others... it took us another 5 , then 10 tries to get everyone to come, then it took us another 2 to perfect it.. we clapped and cheered that the frustration was over with...and were then led to a tarp. we all had to stand on it, and while standing on it, flip it over. I became the leader, without meaning to, and we tried flipping it this way and that, i directed people where to go, and then told them to listen when whitney showed us her idea on a gum wrapper, to twist it at the middle... some girls stood and patiently listened, others helped me lead. in the end we had a great time and got it done! Sister Johnson pulled us into a circle and we pointed at who we thought were the leaders. I felt kinda bad for taking over and not giving the other girls a chance at being the leader, but they all were smiling and pointing mostly at me. It felt good. but i was blushing bright red, i'll tell you now. When we were done sister johnson pulled me aside and gave me a 212 pin. she and our fourth year leader said they were proud of me ,and ushered us on to the next activity. we Had a snack break and went up the hill alittle bit to brother meechem holding something called helium stick. we had to put a finger on it and gently bring it to the ground.. sounds easy right?! WRONG. hardest. thing. ever. people kept pushing up on the stick without meaning to, and the more we tried to go down, the higher up we went:/ grr. ashley and i soon realized that if we pushed our fingers together, that we could lower it to the ground without putting pressure on the stick. austrey , convinced that this wasnt possible( oh how i love her:)<3) didnt listen for a while. eventually we did it. Then did it again from the beginning with this philosophy. He told us thats the only way we could do it... rely on others.we went through a list of survival stuff and we then went up to my FAVORITE part of the day, all the way up in the upper ampetheater.There was a mother, her mother, her daugher and her daughters friend.they talked for a while about how in our teenage years, we base our view of the world on our emotions. It isnt till our early 20's when we get the logic view. because the brain develops from the back to the front. We then were told to have a heart like his, and to open our hearts to others. We walked over to a clear area. We were told to step over the line if.... the questions varied from if we ever felt inadequite, to if we were teased at school because of our race or religious views... i was shocked, to say the least at the amount of girls who were with me on the other side of the line. i stayed back only 2 times. out of the thirty. The questions were have you ever doubted your testimony, and do you always know that you are a daughter of god. ... we went up into the seats and sat in an awkward circle. The mother told us that this was a safe place. That we wouldnt be judged. She said" if you really knew me..." I was the first of the girls to go. If you really knew me you would know that.... i'll save that for someone who really knows me...anyways.we were sung a song and went back to camp bawling at the new love we had for our campers.. who knew that some of them... even the prettiest person i know thought she was ugly, or stupid, or that thier homes made them messed up... it killed me on the inside it really did. after that we had dinner, flag, went back to camp, and played if you love me baby( hilarious! sister dunsmore sat on top of sister fisk and they fell over!! annmarie did a catwalk to austrey, and i didnt crack until someone broke the rules and said something... oh how hilarious. i threw jenika like two feet then gasped at ashley and austrey for giving her that idea. all i'll say is it was a name then it said is a beast. KILLED Me i lauged so hard!)by the light of the fire. I put it out, went to my tent and fell asleep with my feet on the floor and my torso on my cot... because it broke... so fun! well.. That was my favorite day... i'll write the rest, and the best of EFY later:)
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