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bring it up bang bang shot dead.Why is it that I feel like I can't talk to anyone, and yet I feel the need to post some angsty adolescent rant on facebook about how I feel? Something is wrong with my generations wiring... I guess I'd go on a walk if I was allowed out of the house.. but I'm isolated in my insecurity for the moment, stuck in this glass house that I cant throw stones at for fear it will shatter into a thousand peices. Honestly I just feel extremely alone. Why is it that this is the problem with everyone I've ever met... Do I have no excuse? I have no family, I'm pretending to be a member of a family... I'm not. All my friends are phony, or too busy for me if you can really call that friendship. The people I feel like I can talk to about anything and bang bang shot dead. "JUST TWO MORE WEEKS HAHA ITS NOT A BIG DEAL" Well sorry to break it to you but its a big deal to me. " YOU DONT FOCUS ON ALL THE GOOD THINGS HAPPENING IN YOUR LIFE" Wanna make a bet? Im happy most of the time! I'm hardly ever upset... but this time I felt like I should take Brother Valerio's advice and let my guard down. Tear down some walls... I really just want to build a huge wall right now. a mile thick. No one can ever reach me again. I let my walls down-- bang bang shot dead. How I really feel.. bang bang shot dead. So hypocritical " YOU CAN TALK TO US" " FAMILY IS ALLOWED TO BE VUNERABLE" bull. For once I told you what I felt... bang bang so alone.