The LIST.

In my usual form... A LIST. but not just any list, OH NO NO NO.... a list of things I just realized. THIS is a BIG list 1. I spend about 5/8ths of my life in Pajamas 2. I'm a big girl now. 3. It's my turn to be a mommy soon. I'm almost there... IM SO READY. 4. Life moves so fast, its like water through a filter... the present slows it down ( like a filter. choosing the way we take the experience) but the future and the past are still being shaped. The past is over, but our perceptions of it change. 5. Love songs will one day be true for me. 6. I, after about 8 years.. LIKE the color PINK. ( whoa. big change) 7. Shaun Morrow has influenced me beyond all comprehension. I'm going to miss him extremely. 8. Being covered in paint is something I wouldn't mind doing every day. I should be an artist 9. I want to decorate my house. And have a big garden. A BEAUTIFUL backyard. 10. Yellow heels are harder to find than I expected... 11. Sydnee Hinrichsen is beautiful. 12. Michael Heger is still a part of my life, even though he insists on ignoring me completely. 13. I feel CREATIVE. 14. I always get out of bed in the same place 15. Even through all this change, my changing has moved at a completely separate pace 16. I don't hate my past. I'm so grateful for my family, and Makenna, and Joe, and ... all the stuff that happened. 17. What will I do when the Bishop is released?! 18.The formal is gonna be rockin awesome. Even if my date is too shy to talk to me now... he wont be. I hope. 19. School is almost over 20 THE DAY IS COMING SOON WHERE I WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS. CHOOSE MY OWN PATHS. MAKE MY OWN FOOD. LIVE WITH MYSELF. CREATE MY OWN LIFE. FIND MYSELF 21. I need to get a license.... 22. No matter where I go, I wont ever forget the angels I have in my life... so many of them.... I have so many angels. My ward... is ... my family.