One. STRIKE.

I dont know if there's a word. I push everyone away as far as I can. I hate it. It's one strike and you're out with me... but I want to be forgiving Im just kind of tired of it. Everyone hurts me. I just dont know if i can take more of it. You know? Im not thinking about it constantly. Ive been really happy these past few days, but Ive noticed it. Its running right under my skin like a pulse of sporadic electricity. It says " Don't forget Rylea. You are in pain. You have a lot of problems Rylea, dont forget them. Dont fix them. Dont hide them. Its there. Dont forget me. dont pretend."