New Years.

This year has been.. an adventure. I've been so down I was depressed, I've been angry to the point of screaming, I've been so happy I was basically floating, I've been confused, and in love, and surprised, and anxious, and ... indescribable. I have had the best and the worst days you can imagine, and I've had so many wonderful people there with me through it all. 2009, You have brought me pain that has kicked me down farther than I thought possible, and yet, I still managed to get back up. You have brought me new friends, and new perspectives. I have paradigms about myself that a year ago i thought I'd never believe. I like myself, and I'm comfortable in my skin. I've found out those who really wasn't my friends, and those who were all along... I've had crushes that gave me butterfly's and those that made me feel like I had rocks in my stomach. I've proved people wrong. I've blossomed. I've changed. I've made a difference. This next year is a big one. By the end of the school year, I'll be dating, I'll have taken one of the many tests that prove my future, and I'll be different than I am now. But you know... that's o.k. Now its time for reminiscing.
JANUARY- The beginning of the month was really tough, my mom was in the hospital, and I felt like it was my fault. I put a lot of pressure on my friends because of it, and felt even worse.Kenzee gave me a great note that helped me a bunch and I thank her immensely Justin helped a ton, and I'm very thankful for him being there. Libby was a great person to " take off my shoes with".David's car rides were a big help, making me realize that you cant run away from life, but that it's o.k. as long as you have great people helping you get through it. Tests were easy, and I did great, and One Acts were absolutely awesome, as I was Jack in the newsies and Pepper in Annie. Either the end of this month or the beginning of February, Sydney Trotter and I participated in the Regional thespian conference and got an excellent, and also in Annie where we won TOP SUPERIOR and preformed in the Showcase:)
FEBRUARY- The beginning of the month was pretty slow,But for valentines day I got a bouquet of pink roses with a yellow rose in the middle... It was given to me in McShea's class.. .talk about me being bright red!! I continued going to the Smiths for dinner. I met Nolan there, and had a great time trying to get him to date... I set him up with Justins sister Chauntelle:)
MARCH- School was going great, I went to the State thespian competition, and we competed Annie, and Charlie and I went through amazing classes that brought us plenty of laughs " CARROT!!" ( vegetable turrets) We won TOP SUPERIOR AGAIN!!! for Annie. Later that month one of my friends Ashley Gesler was talking with me in P.E. as usual, when we found out that I had made Ozma as a Rock person.. I wasnt too happy... but I went with it. During this month I went running with the XC kids, my favorite run was when we went to the mud puddle and had a huge mud fight, then went to Trotter's house to get washed off and "Study" or dance around her room and talk:)I met Britnee Bartlett in a bathroom at a dance:)
APRIL- Ozma practice went till the end of the month, and I couldnt figure out how to do track with it, so i didn't. We had annual formal dance in our stake, and it was under the sea:) We had so much fun! I was in a white dress with red accents. We got ready at Kiffyns house. It was me, Austrey, Katie Abbott, Ashley Rumsey, and Annmarie. Sister Sorensen, and Sister Wyatt did our hair, and we did eachothers makeup. That night I met a great guy named Josh Nelson, whom comes to play later in this story:) Then there was Tule Springs Stake Youth Conference which was an amazing experience. I stuck to Kelsey Howard like glue merels to be exact! Thats when I got to know Nathan Astle better as well. It was great to put on a fair for the mentally challenged children in our area, they made me smile.
MAY- My birthday was... a flop.but thank you for the flowers Sydney, and for the cupcake charlie:) We preformed Ozma the first and second of may, and the 30th of april . School was wrapping up and so was my fling with Justin. I made my own yearbook, and had a great time preparing for tests... sarcasm Trotter and I tye dyed shirts:)
JUNE- SCHOOL ENDED!! I lazed around the house, went to various parties, and hung out with people like Amelia Knuth and Jessica Van Alfen. Josh held my hand, and I stole his hat:) still have it... Drake Laney came down for a few weeks.. katie Alayna, and Talia's cousin. I had a great time just hanging out.
JULY- FOURTH YEAR HIKE, GIRLS CAMP, EFY. Justin's birthday was at the beginning of the month, and I got shoved in the pool and was lucky enough not to get cake all over myself. Fourth of july... boring. Fourth year hike... the worst hike of my life. the way up I was fine... sorta:) I made it the 9 miles up, and started back. we took a million pictures and on the way down my arches fell, and my feet hurt so bad I was in tears... but it was beautiful and Kiffyn really helped me:) Girls camp was as usual one of the best weeks of my life. I will never forget lifeline, or the heart like his activity. The stars were beautiful, and i loved the food and could rant for hours about it. EFY I felt a little out of place, but met some amazing people, and found some old friends. Cassie Hafen saved me ! thanks for that very strange dance Mike:))
AUGUST - The end of EFY, thanks Jessie for the ride home:D Getting ready for school was about it... Hung out with My group a bunch...
SEPTEMBER- Start of school.. realizing how CRAZY this year was going to be. Met my new theater teacher:(, and met Reed Balli, and found out that Jesse Bergner lives behind me:) Got a job tutoring Scotti, and his mother amazes me every time i see her. Loved my classes for the most part.. Ap world and Trig are still killin me. Started out with the yearbook crew.. .they misheard my name and to this day call me Miley..but now they know. Jessica has been great:) Oh and i started a great club called varsity quiz:) Tried out for Family, and got the lead named Helen. Got really close to the cast. Chelsea, and Sheena the most i think:)
OCTOBER- Jacqies birthday, and then Joe's, then Dad's. We preformed Family ( glad that's over with!!!)we went to Knottsberry farm as a family at the end of the month, and i really started having fun with them:)
NOVEMBER- barely any school all month:) Met JAcqies bf Dana this month:) nice guy! great thanksgiving.. scraping by in schooll :/
DECEMBER- The last month. Christmas was fun. I have everything i could possibly want. Had a great talk with Derek, but i do that alot. started being scared of next year. Had a great day with Reed, and Kathy, and also one with Ash, and then the group. Its been fun

as you can imagine this year has been crazy. there's been heartache, and happiness and it almost feels like the end of something.. but its also the beginning. Happy new year.